ego is for male what charm is to women.....it may not be the universal truth or saying but that was certainly some thing i believed in sum minutes ago. i always thought men as the egoistic pigs who respects this pet of theirs more than us. i never knew or seen any girl having such egos or atleast i pretended i dint see......least of all i could just peek into mirror if i had to look at dat very girl around me who's filled with red,hot male ego.
it all started this afternoon......
i am a big big fan of sex & the city, dat i feel like a l'il carrie myself ,just that i dont have such money to buy manalo blahniks. so, its been long since i've been watching that sitcom n i notice much things about it, the clothes,the makeup,the shoe( especially coz evn i m a big shoe freak ) & the girls. one thing specifically was noted that these girls never hesitated in asking the guy come back to dem to the level that they looked to me like they are begging ( no offences,but seriously) .
poor my boyfriend , never recieved such kind behaviour from me. the rarest of rare event of me prodding ( even now not begging ) him was for the dates n that too i wont repeat the thing if he said a single no.
so i watched the episode where carrie asks eden to take her back n give their relationship a second shot n yet again i was surprised by the carrie's lack of self respect. only later when i called my boyfriend n heard his voice this reality struck me really bad, that its not carrie who's being unreasonable ...its me.
its not lack of self respect, its just too much love .i never experienced that side of love or lets say never let my heart have a say in this self respect department. it seems my fight to save my respect has turned into a battle of egos where both my bfs n my egos clash daily n believe me you would never want that to happen.
i guess love should be given a second chance.
i want ego to loose the battle. ego's for boys n noneother's friend, atleast not mine...no...never.
let him baby this l'il pet of his n i can be happy with my charm n love forever....
